Goals for this year in no particular order of significance:
1. Biggest priority is landing a job that doesn’t fill me with an existential sense of dread every day, a job that has either good insurance or pays enough that I can afford to pay for my own health insurance. I’ve been working on this for awhile but it needs to happen ASAP for any of my other goals to come to fruition. All other goals are solely dependent on this one
2. Working on my transition more. I’m honestly pretty happy with the way things are going and have been going in that regard, but I really really want this to be the year that I at least get an FFS consultation, more laser/electro, some filler etc.
3. Get better at saving money. Probably gonna be tough considering my previous goal, but I want to work on getting a decent nest egg in case of emergencies because I’m tired of being caught with my pants down financially all the time. Also I would like to be able to afford a little vacation this summer, given that traveling is my favorite thing to do.
4. Start doing a full beat regularly. Idk, not a big deal really but it really is true that when we look better, we feel better, I’ve just been in such a depression slump these last few months that I’ve not really done much but a lil eye when I’m going somewhere, and I used to go all out constantly. The fact that I don’t is definitely a symptom of my depression
5. Get healthier, physically and mentally. I have an extremely poor and irregular diet and have severely fallen off the exercise wagon since coming back to Tucson. I want to get stronger and more lean, I’m naturally skinnty and a lil toned but that’s not enough
6. Honoring my romantic needs more. Need to get better at setting clear boundaries with romantic interests and voicing what I want out of those situations. Chasing hoes has been nice but I need some sort of romantic reliability and certainty, I want a girlfriend – not a bouquet of situationships
7. Reading more books. Used to constantly read, now it’s a rarity when I’m especially bored. I have been getting better at this lately tho
8. Be more present in the moment. Years in Tennessee plotting my escape has conditioned me to be a big picture gal, always trying to make moves towards some grandiose life goal, and while that can certainly be a virtue – I need to temper that impulse with also flying by the seat of my pants a little and taking things day by day so as to not overwhelm myself and stall out
9. Getting a reliable vehicle. The CR-V is on deaths door, I’m constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop on that one. I need a set of wheels I’m not having to constantly cross my fingers and hope for the best with
10. Doing the work necessary to stop dwelling on the past and other such things I cannot change. I’ve always struggled with the finality of things, whether it be relationships or whatever else – and these things occupy my mind long after they should. Being able to move forward in this way is also a virtue, and idk how I’m going to internalize it but I’m definitely going to try
I may come back and add more later, idk. This is so I can check memories next year and see what kind of dent I put in all of this