You have been thrown away since birth. You kept getting thrown from family to family after each one understood you had no future. In this case, I don’t believe it is right for you to speak since of course you as well had an abusive mother, multiple in fact. They beat you and tried to throw you away. It was to a point that CPS was done with you, the whole organization knew your face, every single one of their workers have seen you before and even they are tired and seeing a face who you know will end up overdosed on the streets. They were giving up hope to the point where you grew up enough that they couldn’t/didn’t want to support you anymore. Since then you have lived in your apartment, with cardboard cutouts you call parents and leave the call to ‘cook’. YOu wish you had a mother who would cook for you but the closest thing anyone you called mom did was throw boiling water over you, hoping that maybe, just maybe you would die. They wouldn’t need to keep you anymore, no more taking care of you. Who would want to anyway? Even jail was a better option to them.