My brother tried to have sex with me
My brother (20m) was high and attempted to kiss me(21f) and grabbed my breats. He confessed he has sister incest fetish, tried to convince me to try something, asked me to reconsider, to at least touch him. After he finally realized this will never happen, he asked me to not tell anyone and promised to never bring it up again.
After 3 days of not speaking, I gave him a long speech how betrayed and disgusted I was, and how he should quit porn. He blamed it on being high. We started talking again, everything resumed like nothing happened.
And mostly my life hasn’t changed, except now i have violent horrifying nightmares of him trying to rape me. I feel like my whole body is frozen as I try to wake myself up.
I genuinely don’t know what to do. Sometimes I’m disgusted by myself for still talking with him and acting like nothing happened. I haven’t told a single soul about any of this. I don’t know if I should tell a friend or get a therapist. I don’t feel like I’m under danger or that he will attempt anything like this again, but those nightmares terrify me so much and make me feel so helpless.
edit: This situation happened back in April, and he didn’t attempt anything since, that’s why i don’t think he’ll do this again. He’s also planning to move away soon, so i don’t think we’ll see each other often.
Some people also mentioned it probably wasn’t weed but some other drug, and looking back they are probably right. I’ve seen him high many times before and after this incident, but that day he went to the bathroom and when he returned his behavior was very unusual.
Reporting him to police realistically won’t have any legal consequences for him. Telling to my parents is way too scary for many reasons, and it seems too much to unload on a friend either. I will however try to gather enough courage to go to a therapist and start locking my bedroom door at night. Thank you for your advice and kind words.