i’m so fucking tired of being in this fucking disgusting shit hole country. every fucking day is jus filled w fucking disappointment. i thot i was leaving tmr lol but no. i get back friday morning. how fucking wonderful is that. i’m so fucking done w this fucking shit. i tried so fucking hard not to lose my shit but i’m done. i’m done being forced to go out even tho i feel so physically ill. i’m done being forced to go to disgusting asian “restaurants” jus to watch all of my family enjoy their fucking disgusting food while i sit there starving bc i fucking hate everything they eat. i’m fucking done with this fucking country. all i’ve done this whole fucking tme is suffer mentally and physically. i’ve never been in sm pain in my life. i’ve had a constant migraine for over 2 weeks straight. i have to take like 14 advil’s every single fucking day or else i feel like my head will explode. all ‘ive done is go to stupid fucking asian malls. i wasted my whole fucking summer being here. i did not enjoy myself at all and i genuinely tried so fucking hard to make the most out of this fucking place. i cant fucking do this anymore. i want to commit fucking murder. i’ve never been more unhappy in my entire fucking life. all i feel is pain. i never wanted to be here for this long in the first place. it is now my fucking life goal to make my mother hate herself for as long as she lives. i do not fucking care about her anymore. or anything. i’m fucking done. funny thing is she somehow thought our relationship would get better bv of this trip even tho i fucking cried to her before we even left fucking telling her i cannot fucking be here for 3 weeks and it’s too fucking much for me. how is she fucking surprised that i hate her even fucking more now that i ever fucking did before. i don’t even consider her as my mother. she knows nothing ab me. she is jus the woman who gave birth to me. nothing more nothing less lol kys ugly bitch. i want to die