Yes, i know it’s weird. When i was maybe 5 or 6 years old, i saw my first anime, Yu-Gi-Oh. There was a lot i enjoyed about the show, but the biggest thing for me was Mai Valentine, the character. Never had i seen a female character who was designed like that before. (You know, american cartoons tend to be very strict on sexual content). I had a huge crush on her as a kid, to the point i even got sad when she almost dies in the show.

But to be fair, i’ve developed crushes on fictional characters before. But never have i felt anything this strong. Most i got over after a week and have held no lasting impact , but Mai stayed with me well into teenhood. As an example, whenever i duel agaisnt Mai in a yugioh game, i’m always reluctant to actually beat her. I still can’t watch her near death episode without getting sad either. But some other crushes i’ve had, Chun Li from street fighter, i have no problem fighting her when i play. Even when i grew out of Yugioh, she stayed in my mind.

Adult hood, in my 20’s, is when it really started to grow, i got back into Yugioh and all these feelings came flooding back.

I’m just gonna be honest, i love her. As an adult even, i think about her a lot. It sucks, like really, cause i can’t just call her, she isn’t real. It’s like my mind knows this, but my heart still longs for her. I even find myself getting actively jealous whhen i see her paired with somebody in fanfiction or art. I even spent a whole day trying to find hentai or doujins of her. I think about her way too often, especially at night when i’m trying to go to sleep, i’ll just lay there thinking about her and then get sad because i can’t do anything about it.

I don’t even know why, it’s just something really special about her, her design, her personality, etc., I’ll just say it, I Love Mai Valentine. I am 100% genuine with this. I’m genuinely smitten with her and have no idea what to do.