I am a german author and write fantasy and erotic Fiction, with the last beeing my main side income. Not much but a nice extra. For a long time I was able to keep this a secret from everyone as I was not comfortable to share this until recently. (Written under a different name because of my job and for some other reasons).

But with time and some books laying around for proof reading my father who knows about my fantasy projects realized the truth. He orderd the books secretly, knowing by the disclaimers what to expect. He read them, loved them and told me about them. Well now my own father is an avid follower of my Dark Romance / Erotic books.

Honestly I thought I would not mind much, we laughed about it and he supported me. Well everything was fine until now, roughly 6 month after the discovery. I find myself struggling to write the new sex scene in my upcoming novel. Everytime I try to the fact that my father will read the parts gives me an internal panic attack and I lose all focus. My parents also did not raise me in any strict no sex way at all, they were really open.

It makes no sense my dad loves the books, he is 66 years old but gives no fuck about the content. He enjoys the crime and drama part much more but reads the erotic parts for the \`*romance*´. (I think a huge part is also just pride that I manage to write and make some money with my books)

And yet I have fought for two months writing a blowjob scene. I even reverted back to a fantasy project for the time being hoping to distract myself and return. Did absolutely nothing for me … I just can´t think about the scene and map it out in my head without the thought of my Mom and Dad crashing in. And yes … my Mom reads them too after Dad kept on talking about them, so that made it even worse.

So I am very open to some advice or tips on how to overcome this. Because my deadline is coming and I am really close to losing my mind. I have never before struggled with a writers block.