I’m tired of being told I’m subhuman because I’m a straight white male.

I’m tired of being told that because I’m a gamer I’m the scum of the Earth.

I’m tired of the smear campaigns being run across all of the mainstream media about GamerGate.

I’m tired of the mass censorship across the internet about several different topics because having a differing opinion is the equivalent of harassment.

I’m tired of people I used to look up to in media calling me a bigot with “White Male Privilege” without even getting to know me or my views because I’m a supporter of GamerGate.

I’m tired of being told that I’m as bad as Isis.

I’m tired of all the drama.

I’m tired of being told I’m an SJW because I don’t think that there is anything wrong with someone running a tournament not wanting to allow the outfits that they feel are too sexy be used at said tournament.

I’m tired of the people who complain about e-celeb topics by making more e-celeb topics.

I’m tired of the extremists on both sides who refuse to see that we’re all humans.

I’m tired of having to look for reasons to care anymore.

I’m tired of not being able to make YouTube videos anymore because of how depressed I am about all of this.

I’m tired of feeling like all the progress I made against my depression was for naught.

I’m tired of wondering whether I deserve the air I breathe everyday.

This isn’t a cry for help, and I have no plans on taking my life. So, if anyone reads those last two statements and thinks that’s the case. I understand why you would, but I wouldn’t want anyone to find me like that.

I won’t go into details, but when I was in the 8th grade someone lied about me, and all the people in my life that I expected to protect me turned on me and called me a monster for something I didn’t even do. I then got sent to a mental health hospital for an extended period of time where they were ramming it down my throat that I was a monster for something I hadn’t done.

Gaming used to be my safe place, but I don’t think I even have that anymore. Every time I turn on a game I think about all this drama and it just brings back all the bad, and all the hurt. I know that I’m not the monster that anti-GamerGate says I am… but what if I am?

I know that a lot of you won’t understand why I feel this post is important to make, but it is for me.

I’m not looking for upvotes or words of kindness. I just needed to vent my problems with all of this drama to try and free myself from it.

I’m not an e-celeb, and only have 42 subs on YouTube. I’m not even the most vocal person here or on Twitter so I expect most people to just skip passed this post.

If you do make it all the way to the bottom though. I’m sorry if I upset you, and I hope you have a great day ahead of you.

I’m probably going to go off now and stare at a dark corner of my room and mope.