As you may guess, yes I’m a dude. I have never once in my life felt any romantic or sexual attraction towards a guy. But ever since covid lockdowns started, and I started spending more time on the internet, I slowly developed this urge to get fucked in the ass. At first it was just me wanting to stick a finger up my ass cause why not lol? Then overtme I got to the point where I can’t even get it up to masturbate unless I’ve already played with my ass for a solid 2 minutes or more. Now, however, is nothing but agony. I can’t sleep at night unless my ass is super sore and on the verge of crying from pain. Is this normal? I think it’s the internet’s fault since I’m really not gay(I just think it would be nice to have a real human dick to pleasure my anus, no romance or strings attached) and this was something I never would’ve expected to happen before covid. Personally, I don’t think I’m gay, but I would appreciate a second opinion.

tldr: i would like to experience a real human cock up my ass, but i dont see this as an indication of being gay. So am I gay?