I have felt Him. I fear death, and growing old. I am 19, and have felt as if like my work has never been enough. I have constantly convinced myself that it is okay. I have doubts on my faith as well. I know that God is with me, but at the back of my mind, I refused to open up to Him.

Until today. I have felt a great regret for a specific sin. And so I prayed for forgiveness. I said to the Lord, let me live for You. I am sorry.

And a few minutes after, while listening to music (I have to say the music was fitting too!) I felt a sudden wave of joy. Not a joy I convinced myself of feeling.

I felt a rush of joy, a joy I could not explain. I almost felt like crying. I began to faintly see a silhouette of a man in robes, with His arms spread wide as I looked up. Everything was brighter than normal.

I felt Him ask me, “are you ready to follow me?”.. to which I responded.. “I am ready to love for you.”..

This may sound bizarre my FEAR, the fear of death, my fear of growing old, my fear of would I not be saved? Am I damned? Gone, like autumn leaves in spring.

I suddenly realized, a greater Life awaits me. This is temporary. My feeling of emptiness had been filled with a purpose. A purpose to spread the word.

I suddenly no longer feel dread when thinking about death. Rather, everytime I think of death, all I remember is what I saw today. The Man surrounded in clouds, with His arms stretched out wide, saying “are you ready to follow me?”

I am proclaiming it now. I REPENT. I may sin, but I shall hate my sin. No longer will I follow God while dancing with the snares of sin. I feel like you all need to hear this.

JESUS IS HERE WITH US ALL. IT IS NOT TOO LATE.

He is coming soon, do not be afraid, for no child of God would be afraid for the second coming, but would rejoice! Rejoice with me now, and know that a Great and powerful God is here, with you, and with everyone.

I love you all!