as anyone who tries to talk/message me can guess, I’m pretty shit with replying… I’m going through a bit of an existential crisis and I’ve decided to take a break from basically all social media. I don’t want to meet up thank you, I will see people when I can, I don’t want to have small talk, I can’t even keep up with my good friends who deserve better than no reply leaving them confused. This is just a memo to say I’m sorry, I hope I haven’t offended any of you too much with my lack of caring (but I don’t even like most of you)
Close friends – I hope some of you can understand why I won’t be talking/about for at least a short while. I just need time to self reflect/self measure because I need to understand myself better. to me this isn’t even much of a big deal, I barely go on my phone
anyway. technology sucks and so does everyone in this world. I go on Facebook for memes, iconic posts and to regurgitate humour between friends. I uploaded photos that I wanted to upload but that’s about it. social media is just a haven for bored people, and I don’t want to be bored anymore. I’m not gonna go on my phone ever tbh, so messaging me will probably result in no reply. I hope none of my friends take any of what I’ve said personally, this is all aimed at nobody. if anyone feels they
desperately need me, call my phone. don’t have my number? inbox me. I know I may look selfish, but I just want to be able to live my life without the worry of “oh. Who’s talking to me?”, “oh I need to reply to this person”, it’s just long man. Unnecessary worry! and life’s too grand to waste staring at pointless conversation just because we’re trying to preoccupy ourselves from the real world. I don’t want to hold this little rectangle anymore. this tiny glowing screen that pisses me off beyond belief. I wanna create, do, be.
Oh yeah, and merrist wood people – I don’t think I’ll see you all through to the end of the year/term. I can’t keep up. College has made me but also broken me. I just can’t do it. I’ll see you all at college and I can explain to anyone that cares then. I’m so sorry but I have lost all drive. I am aware we don’t have long left, but I wish I never even went to this college. worst decision of my life as I’ve wasted two years. I wish I had left months ago. I’ve stayed for some people and not wanting to give in but I have to now.

sorry my dudes, if anyone’s in trouble/needs my personal help please feel free to contact me but don’t do it asking for a lift or seeing how I am, I’ll help if needed but I just need a break. I wasn’t actually gonna write anything, was just going to turn my phone off, but I thought some people at least deserve a little explanation saying that I’m not dead or hating you, I’m gonna do just fine. I refuse to live my life through a screen. peace n love, weirdos. ✨🚀