I just woke up from a horrible dream. And I really want to cry because it was really heartbreaking the dream was really sad because me and my homegirl We’re talking and I was telling her if I was not married married in the next 10 years or in love in the next 10 years then I’m probably gonna start doing heroin. And I woke up from a part of the dream because it freaks me up because I never wanna try it. But at the same time a part of me does feel that if I’m not in a loving relationship by a time I turn 35 or 40 then maybe yes I probably would start shooting heroin and taking really huge doses for the sake of a drug induced suicide.