So for starters I’ve noticed this from a young age ever since I watched Madagascar 3. There was something about clown Marty that both scared me but weirdly enticed by his clown scheme. Every time I would go to the circus I would try to avoid the clowns but something in me would want to go up to them and liked being scared of them. And no matter where or how the clown was dress or acted I would always be terrified of them but… later into my teens years I haven’t been around clowns as much but whenever I see one appear on a show or movie I always get scared but that same enticed feeling came back but now in a sexual way. I would try to ignore it but once the joker movie came out I found out the sad truth. I am both terrified of clowns. But weirdly aroused by them.