Help guys it’s urgent !!

Damn it feels so awkward writing this down but i REALLY need help! So basically my cousin recently got the nerve to confess that he oved me since childhood and still till now which made me feel the same way abt him cuz yea i loved him years ago when i was young but i forgot all abt it cuz bro he’s ma cousin i can’t even let him know that i hv feelings for him (so awkward) or open up to him abt this so yea i totally forgot it. We didn’t meet or talk for 2 years but there was some family events this year so we met! The nigga turn to be so attractive ngl 🙂 anywaysss he confessed and i did too we barely dated cuz both of us didn’t wanna loose our parents trust especially me i didn’t wanna disappoint his sis cuz i love her so much she like a bsf to me (she’s older than both of us) so we stopped immediately nd there when the things began to miss up idk we pretend all the time like we don’t care about each other we don’t get jealous we are just COUSINS and that’s okay tbh but after the drama our relationship as cousins changed!! Idk if we can laugh nd act dumb in front of each other again after wht happened i started feeling soooo uncomfortable nd shy around him (cuz we met few times after the drama) now the problem is my other cousin who’s his sis asked me to came to spend some days with her cuz she misses me and wanna hv some time with me broo how can i ?!i can’t even look at him straight in the eyes how can be with him in the same house!! Guys pls help tell me how to act how to… idk wht should i do when he’s around when we crush it in the kitchen, the bathroom, when we’re eating on the same table!!!! bruuuh im goin out of my mind!!! should i pretend that everything’s goin well nd there’s nth wrong with our relationship as cousins? (Knowing that we went through some fights lately or let’s say dry nd cold messages were sent and received) so he’s soo cold now nd we’re not even talking that much (takes days nd weeks) so guys tell me wht should i do when i go at his place (don’t tell me don’t go cuz she won’t stop inviting me till I’m there in her room) IF ANYONE HAS GOOD IDEAS PLS DROP IT DOWN I’LL TRULY APPRECIATE I and thx🤍