(Taken from r/DnD)

**”Goodbye, Kairon”**

Hi there, or rather goodbye.

I don’t know what happened last night. I respect your decision to leave the group, even if I don’t understand what prompted it. I know that getting to know you and the character you crafted was absolutely my pleasure and I had hoped we would be a good fit for one another, you for the group and the group in turn for you.

Mid combat, as far as I can tell, you disappeared from Discord voice chat and roll20, and when I went to send you a direct message on Discord, initially suspecting connectivity issues, you had already blocked me and I later learned you had disabled my viewing permission from your spell preparation spreadsheet which I had thought was so clever and eventually you left the group server. I respect your decision to leave, and I hope that whatever occurred that prompted your decision won’t sour your opinion of tabletop rpg like d&d in general.

I don’t know if it was an aspect of combat, this being your first time in session engaging in combat, or if there was a decision or comment made throughout gameplay you felt was out of line that may have made you uncomfortable, or whatever else may have possibly happened because you chose to leave without comment. As DM, one of my responsibilities to the players of the game is as an arbiter. Just as I told you how I would defend your orientation against other players and wouldn’t allow anyone to make you feel comfortable for expressing that thematically in any way at the metaphorical table, that concept would have extended to any other conduct that might have made you feel uncomfortable or overwhelmed. You may not have even felt that way but something else entirely may have prompted your decision but in lieu of providing a reason, those are the only rationalizations I’m able to think of and grapple with right now on my own.

Even if I, as the Dungeon Master, was making you feel in any way unwelcome in the game, my most sacred responsibility is to take your feelings and play experience into account and make sure that the game is a safe and welcoming experience for you as a player at my metaphorical table, especially as a new player that had requested assistance I was glad to provide. We spent hours crafting your character backstory and sheet for Kairon over the last week, on voice chat and text, to find them a place in my world alongside the other players in the campaign and I was so proud of that character and all the potential that he had and I thank you for that time spent engaging in discussion of d&d, a passion of mine that I was glad to share with a novice player.

My heart breaks for the fact that I feel as though I failed you last night.

I don’t know if you left because of me or another player or the situation or the game and I may never know, but as the Dungeon Master, all of those were my responsibility to manage and I take responsibility for the fact that something must have prompted you to leave us so abruptly in your first session and I am very sorry to see you go.

I hope you will find the right game out there for you somewhere soon and it will be everything you want and need that I could not give you in my game. Good luck and goodbye.

-Miles