For awhile, I have not been happy. If I did something, I got bored. The only thing that kept me happy was the internet. This led me to become an ugly robotic idiotic incel that thinks its hard to get a life. I’ve been addicted to pornography for about a few years. I tried nofap but I keep failing on the 3rd day. Everybody hates my guts and looks. Even my parents do. I have not considered suicide which is bullshit that Satan is forcing upon you to meet him in hell. I have treated everyone like a cuck because “muh /pol/” (yeah I’m a /pol/tard hate me). All of the jokes I make in life and on the internet are not funny and people tell me “Nobody cares!”. I’ve lived in a wigger neighborhood since I was born and never moved out. Never even had a girlfriend in my life. All of my education meant nothing when getting jobs I like because I keep getting rejected do to my looks and autistic interactions. I have lost motivation in life and I’m losing my religion. Lived in the same room and only in the room for my entire life which is my bedroom. All of the ancestors are unhappy of what I become. If my fucking parents didn’t buy my first fucking computer, I would playing in sports and be active. This world man, It’s my fault.