I’m struggling to find a job due to a series of mental/emotional hang-ups. What should I do?

I’m a 21 year old college student currently looking for a part-time job so I can have a steady income. I’ve practically flunked out now so I’m switching to community college to change majors and try again, this will be my second time changing majors. I have been “searching” for 2 months now. I began in early January, and have spent that time doing about as little as I could have, hence the quotation marks. This is partially because I feel humiliated when I think of doing entry-level jobs like the ones I’ve applied for. I feel like people who see a fat ugly guy with dandruff and acne stocking at Safeway will think I’m a piece of shit and judge me silently. It makes me scared of working at all. I have some social anxiety as well, it took me 2 days of working myself up to go to Safeway right when they open (so there are less people) and sign the application sheet they have on a little table and I had to circle around the place a couple times pretending like I was shopping before I worked up the will to do it. I could go to a nursery nearby and ask a cashier if they’re hiring, hypothetically, but when I think about it I get hung up on thoughts like “well what if they tell me they don’t know and I look stupid or someone in line judges me for trying to work at a nursery or blah blah blah”. For both, no matter how irrational my concerns, it’s like there’s a solid concrete wall between me and the source of my anxiety. Understanding the absurdity of my fears has done little to motivate me.

I’ve spent 95% of my days for the last year+ sitting in this chair in front of this computer doing things like watching YouTube videos, browsing reddit, playing video games, reading the news, and watching pornography. I have had a few successes in this latest two months though. For example, a few weeks in I managed to get myself to apply to Costco, but I still haven’t heard back. I then lied to my dad saying that I had applied to 3 different places so that he wouldn’t think I was doing nothing, which in hindsight was a bad move because it made him think I’ve done more than I have which makes him think I should have greater results than I have which makes the revelation of my indolence more likely and potentially more catastrophic.

Continuing with my successes: I’ve started showering more often, I applied to Safeway just a few days ago (haven’t heard back from them either), I got a haircut, and I did a few load of laundry so I have clean clothes now. However, I still brush my teeth around once a week, there is still a pile of clothes in my room that might have bugs in it, I blew off two volunteering opportunities at a food bank (which I took at the demand of my exasperated father), and despite telling myself I would apply to 5 more places today I have yet again done nothing with my precious time. My father attempts to motivate me with speeches about how I have to go out there and “socialize, leave the house, do something”. He raised his voice a few days ago when I told him about how I’ve been struggling to do things in the day because I wake up at 3:00 in the afternoon, which makes me not want to talk to him anymore. I think he’s going to kick me out if don’t do something soon.

Please tell me what I should do. This isn’t going well.