Does anyone else do sickmaxxing?

>Be me
>Be a few months ago
>Have a bit of a cough, voice sounds much deeper and gruffer for a few days
>Girls I know start commenting on it, one saying I sound more “manly”
>One day I get better, voice goes back to normal, and one of the girls says something along the lines of “oh, I miss the deep anonvoice”

Now I do everything in my power to stay sick and try to have a hoarse voice 100% of the time. I sleep with a ziplock bag full of ice to keep my head cold and go outside wet so induce immunological failure. The only problem is I’ve been getting stronger and had to resort to growing and consuming bread mold (I usually just eat it, but started inhaling it when it wasn’t working anymore).
That stopped working, and I started making myself incredibly dehydrated and screaming as loud as I can into a pillow in order to damage my voice. Any suggestions on how I can I keep my voice damaged to where it sounds deeper and rougher? Or just stay sick? l’ve never felt healthier, and I hate it.