Remember this, God does not force you to believe in him. In fact, he does not need us anyway but we need him. He is God, you are only a piece of meat. Whatever your reasons are, God only revealed the things that he wanted to. But the fact is, you are overcome with your human reasoning and understanding. Your wisdom does not even reach to God’s. It is very complex to understand with our limited mind. You are a clay and you cannot question the potter. Just note that whatever you believe in, you will face the consequence. And unbelief is a sin that has no forgiveness. So be careful of questioning God with all your limited understanding. Read Job and understand Gods explaination. Do not understand by your head. Let the spirit help you because only Jesus can teach you all things.