Whenever my darling falls asleep while we’re on the phone, it’s always so adorable. I know she’s tired from her day & needs to get her rest to wake up even brighter and more beautiful the next day.
Most times after she falls asleep, I’ll start talking about our relationship, and I’ll tell her about my favorite memories with her, the way she’s enchanted my emotions, or I’ll just describe how beautiful she is, in every possible way you could describe a person’s wonder.
Then I’ll start singing songs to her, softly. Like a lullaby, I’ll sing songs we listened to together, or songs that we have adopted as songs about us. I love singing to her, because I know her subconscious mind is taking it all in, and she can wake up with my love and my voice blossomed in her mind somewhere.
When I start getting sleepy, I’ll sleep with her. I’ll head to my bed, the same bed we shared when she visited, and we’ll stay on the phone throughout the night, as if she were actually here with me. When she wakes up for any reason, I’ll be able to hear her, and we can comfort each other back to sleep. Some nights she wakes me up to tell me she loves me.
Then I’ll listen to her breathing. Just listen to her existing. I’ll listen to her cute sleeping noises, the way she tosses and turns in her bed from time to time, or her breathing pattern. This let’s me know that she’s sleeping comfortably and soundly.
Then I’ll remember one thing. I’ll think about how this day has come to an end, and how it only brings me closer to her, every time the moon passes the night sky. It’s another night closer to spending with her.