Lost my virginity yesterday guys (I’m 19 195cm 96kg been training for 3 months, gained 7kg), i did’nt come she did’nt come i need help.

So I met this girl last week on a friends birthday party. I said one thing to her and her friend when they arrived and then ignored her for the rest of the night, until she came over to me and a friend and started talking with us. You guys have to know that i am by no means pretty or anything, im rather ugly and autistic ( was on a party a month ago and a girl told me she liked tall guys and seemed into me so I was like lets go dance because we were kinda standing awkwardly and I dont know how to hold a proper conversation with an attractive girl. House music was playing and I dont know how to dance to that shit because I listen to hip hop mainly. So I grab her hand awkwardly and started to dance waltz with her. It was so fucking weird and bad and i don’t know why I did that. I got her nuber when I asked for it but she didn’t want to meet (who would have thought?). And this was only mildly autistic for my standards). So back to the story, the girl kissed me when we went(first kiss) to the club and later we held hands too.

I got her number from a mutual friend because i forgot to ask her and we decided to watch the last episode of Game of Thrones at my place. Now the sex…first of all she was so tight it did hurt at the beginning(2 fingers did not fit easily in her). My problem is i did not feel it. I dont know what it is, my dick was not really hard and it really did not feel that good. I mean it did feel good but i thought it would feel much much better( I could not imagine fucking another dude so i don’t think I’m gay) When I think back now 2 weeks prior to this I watched porn like 3 times a day and jacked off just because I could and was bored. After a week I then suddenly stopped watching porn and my libido is really low now. I get hard daily but i just dont feel the need to jack off, even after a week. And when i finally did jack off out of boredom it took me like 20 minutes( did it without porn just watching at my muscles in the mirror nohomo). So yea now im fucking scared that this might be permanent.
2 more things that bother me are that she didn’t compliment at all. I wrote her good morning beautfifull girl, all she does write is good morning and goodnight but altleast everyday. I also complimented on her calves and said she has a broad back(holy fuck I actually might be gay and autistic). All she told me was you have weird knees (I mean they are weird but wtf?). The second thing is that I had no endurence, like I would thrust her for 30 seconds and then I needed a break. Do you guys have any advice to build up ”sex endurance”?
She stayed until the next day and I have to say the best part for me was to have someone to cuddle with and to hold her.

I don’t know why im writing all this but I guess i just have to tell someone about this and I love you guys. Thanks for reading this bros and does anyone of you advice for me. (sorry for any grammatical mistakes)


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