what I love
about twitches that I just get to be
myself I do get to be myself I get to be
a very very um different part of myself
it’s really interesting when people come
in to chat and they accuse me of being
fake I don’t disagree with you I don’t
know who my authentic self is on stream
yet every single day that I come on here
I discover new things about myself that
I’m willing to share with you and new
things about myself that feel important
to share with you and and I love sharing
them with you you guys I really really
do I surprise myself and I surprise you
I had another streamer recently say that
I surprised them as well and discovering
that I have the ability to surprise even
old pros at this game really really
makes me feel like I am where I’m
supposed to be a wish list destroyer
you’re not fake you’re just crazy yes of
course I’m crazy I’m crazy in love I’m
crazy happy I am crazy high on life I
really really like being where I am I
like the people that I’m with and I have
felt this way for my entire life when it
was in high school when it was in
elementary school when it was in
university when it was in college when I
worked at summer camp when I worked at
the hot dog Factory I worked for in to
be nice to her when I worse in the
Disney Princess when I am on Twitch I
find people that I love I find people
that I like and I keep them close to me
the people who come back each and every
day are the people that I want to see
each and every day and the haters can
come every day if they want to and I’ll
be happy to see you too because at least
you’re showing me that I’m important to
you with your consistency and if I can
be nothing else it is consistent because
I will come back each and every day and
that will give you new reasons to hate
me and I will give you new reasons to
love me because that’s what you deserve
and that’s what I deserve I want to see
how far I can go I want to see what I
can do on this platform I want to see
how far the blanket fort can expand I
want to understand the best parts of
myself and I’m not saying that I’m gonna
find them on Twitch but I think that I
can find the best parts of myself if I
keep going and keep saying yes and I
discover the parts inside of me that I
– afraid – ashamed of – apologetic do
you realize how many times I want to
send a boy a picture of my fully exposed
vulva and the first instinct is first to
apologize for even messaging him in the
first place I want to say I’m sorry that
I’m bothering you I’m sorry that I
messaging you I’m sorry that I’m texting
you I’m sorry that I’m damning you I’m
sorry that I’m talking to you I’m sorry
that I’m caring about you I’m sorry that
I’m trying to figure out who you are
because all I want to do is open up
enough dialog so I can’t expose
everything about myself the only thing
that I want to do is expose who I truly
am to you but I feel subconscious
because people tell me that I’m fake and
people tell me that I’m faking these
things and then I’m psychotic that I’m
88 see that I’m on drugs I am all these
terrible things that I’m not what is
actually happening is that I love being
here I love being on Twitch this has
been a dream of mine for so many years
so many years I’m embarrassed to talk
about it can you imagine meeting a boy
that you want to fuck and the first
words out of your mouth are all I want
to do is be a famous twitch streamer
he’s never heard of twitch he just wants
to put his dick in you and you’re
talking about twitch gets what
motherfuckers sometimes it works out I
fucked that motherfucker and he bought
me this great big toy because I became a
famous twitch streamer
that motherfucker believed in my dream
even though he never and I believe we
know even further even here even more
into the blanket part and I think that
we can do it together and I don’t know
that I can’t do it by myself
I can literally only do with each and
every one of you and I think that we can
this channel has grown bigger and faster
and more than any other channel and
twitch has ever be far the clips are
good make sure the titles are sexy make
sure that you do me good guys cuz I come
in here every single day covered in
glitter covered in sequins covered in
booty shorts covered in nylons so that I
do not violate the Terms of Service so
that each and every one of you can have
both hands on the keyboard so you can
enjoy the stream so you could have a
good time listening to me playing with
me singing with me styling with me
enjoying your life with you and jus you
do you do deserve to enjoy each and
every moment of your life you enjoy and
each every one of your life is worthy
you guys you
do it you can be the best that you can
be and we can do it together it’s gonna
take effort it’s going to take patience
it’s gonna take a lot and a lot a lot a
lot of work but if we don’t try then
what the fuck is stopping us from just
throwing ourselves off a bridge and
giving up and saying yeah the planet is
dying the government hates us
the animals are leaving the aliens
aren’t contacting us we might be alone
it just might be you and me but that’s
okay because do you really need anyone
else