My phome broke, my and my father has covid, and hearing this now just makes me cry. God damn am i unhappy and god damn have i fucked everything up in my life. My mother, father, and anyone i once loved ive pushed away, genuinely ruined everything. I have nothing much to say, im sorry. i know you wont believe me but what can i do, i did this to myself.
I dont know where or what you heard of me, but im not a bad person.. because depending where from, they will paint me beyond my worst.
I dont deserve your forgiveness or.. honestly dont know what i deserve, but i hope you bother to read what i send one day, the day i finally say goodbye to everyone, maybe a day where people can be happier. Im sure you and a few others will.