If you use stims with very attractive thin blonde woman with straight white teeth, is stim sex safer for your soul than stim fapping to porn in a cold dark room?

Anywho, I want your opinion on this topic. Heres a little background-.

Me & my woman discovered adderall for sex when we got some to cram for college test many years ago. We didnt study. We fucked. That was 10 years ago. Since then, we use adderall once per month for sexual sessions to perform perversions on each other. The woman & I have been together 15 years & my penis & I have to contend with the Coolidge effect which is mitigated by adderall.

I assume many here dont know what its like being married to a woman for 15 years who is also your stim sex partner for nearly as long, so i will explain the process of escalating sexually perverterd acts-

My woman enjoys sucking my penis sober & her oral fixation goes into over drive on adderall. Once she went 10 straight hrs of sucking my genitals and anus. Right away I began shoving my balls and flacid penis in her asshole, which led to me gaping her asshole open, which led to her gaping my asshole open. She then discovered she could indeed insert (shove) my flaccid penis into my own asshole & it would stay inside, & spent the whole session licking my asshole with my own penis in my own asshole. She was enthralled. She prefers me on couch & bending my legs behind my head so she can lick my asshole from base of couch. From this position I discovered i can insert my flaccid penis in my mouth with a little pulling. She liked this & wanted me to ejaculate into my mouth & hers simultaneously from this position next session. I ejaculated my flaccid penis into my mouth & her mouth simultaneously. Months later we did it again but this time she kissed me & smeared sperm all over our faces & forced the remaining sperm from her mouth into my anus. She then inserted (shoved) my flaccid penis into my own asshole to open my anus, causing the sperm she spit into my asshole to leak onto my penis & asshole. She proceeds to get it in her mouth again & make out with me.

This took many years to work up to, but the pattern clearly escalates into more degenerate sexual acts, which I assume long term stim fappers experience via incrementally viewing more degenerate porn and/or performing escalating sexual acts on themselves. For example: I recently have been enthralled while first taking adderall with forcing my semi flaccid penis into my wifes anus while she purposely congests herself with hard ball type feces. I feel a short lived sense of shame about it when the adderall wears off, but this is short lived & quickly becomes normalized within my psyche.

These types of things took years to work up to, again, but degenerate sexual acts seem to be chosen by the adderall during the initial euphoric rush as I become fixated on performing a very odd yet specific sexual act which I had never thought of before.

My question, finally, is: do you think my woman & I engaging in such hedonic perversions is as bad as those who stim fapping topornography? Why or why not? I must add, we record these sexual sessions & play them on a big screen projector while engaging in monthly sexual stim sessions, which we both masturbate to during a session.