Lol kinda off topic but your username reminds me of a reoccurring nightmare I’ve been having almost every night, that has me contemplating suicide during my waking hours. It started about a year ago, and hasn’t really stopped since. In the dream, I’ve been brutally tortured and mutilated – my body now in chunks of mangled flesh scattered around a valley, and a single nerve connects all the bits of me. I’m alive and conscious, though my head is in pieces and parts, removing my ability to scream. The nightmare always worsens. At some point during my nightmareish ordeal, hundreds of pigs would decent onto the valley to mercilessly feast on my flesh while I helplessly endure it. The pigs were all part of a singular entity that called itself ‘The Dankest Bobthulu’. Some of the pigs would then rub their dicks all over whatever part of me they were eating, then squeal when ejaculation was reached.