okay, i know this is a actual fucking sin and it’s fucking disgusting i honestly can’t help my feelings anymore and it’s so hard to fucking hold it and not spill my whole heart out. yes, i’m gonna admit it. i have a crush on my brother. yes my fucking brother, out of all 7 billion people on the world it had to be my brother. but look… i love him a lot. his personality is honestly the best thing. he puts a smile on everyone’s faces. he has the best traits in the world. handsome, amazing, kind, loyal. i love him. but what can i do? my family is gonna be so disappointed in me. but i honestly can’t hold this. im not even kidding the pressure is so hard i feel like everyone’s gonna think im joking but i’m honestly not. i know it sounds so fake but i actually need advice. ive liked him for 8 months now. the pressure is so much for me. ive never told anyone about this :/ it’s just so hard to not run up to him into his room and squeeze him to death and pin him to the wall. i love him. nothing can ever stop me from loving him. the truth is, i’m disgusted and disappointed in myself for even being like this. i know i’m a disgrace but i can’t help it okay? love is love. i guess it’s kinda okay because this ain’t pedophillia because my brothers 16 and i’m 14. anyways aside from my uh extremely huge rant what should i honestly do about this? i’ve turned so sick because of this I don’t even go out my room now because i’m so upset at myself about this. even my moms been telling me to quit being a lazy $%#!@ this is so… much. im so sorry mom and dad. i can’t help this. im just weak. i really need help. im mentally and emotionally not okay at all. please can anyone give me advice? thank you so much. i appreciate anything i gettl;dr i have a crush on my brother and i’m fucking terrified and i feel like i’ll get attacked so much. read the whole thing to understand everything. thank you.