Hi everyone. I won’t waste much time with introductions, nor am I going to justify why I created this account. It is obviously not my main. I was torn between writing this post on r/confessions or here, but I finally decided to see if any other Snyder fans are in my situation. I’m a neurobiologist, so I know how addictions work, and I can assure you that my dopaminergic circuit is addicted to Zack Snyder movies like an addict is addicted to any drug.

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When I was in college, I first watched 300 and thought it was a great movie, the combination of visuals and soundtrack brought me to tears. So, you can imagine my reaction to Man of Steel and Batman V Superman afterwards. Upon leaving the cinema, I found it strange that my wife and son did not find the film exciting. And as absurd as it may seem, it was the cause of a quarrel with her. I’ll spare you the details, but already in 2016, we weren’t going through a good moment in our marriage, which is why anything, even discussions about a movie, lit the fuse.

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In 2017 we divorced. I was hoping to find relief and distract myself with DC movies, but Josstice League came along and dealt me ​​a huge blow. For the following years, I continued to rewatch MoS and BvS, trying to grasp every detail and watching video analyses that spoke of the hidden meanings and references in the films. I became one of the main leaders of the #Releasethesnydercut campaign, and when ZSJL was released, it was one of the best days of my life.

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I’d lost my wife, my job was failing due to depression, but I’d gotten a film that I’d wanted for a long time and one that was mostly about hope. He helped me get up. To take back the reins of my life. If Batman had come out of the tunnel of despair that gripped him, so could I.

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Then James Gunn came along and destroyed my dreams for good. Now I’m battling depression again, broken only by the failed hope of getting Henry Cavill back as Superman. I live alone, I don’t have a partner, I see my son once a week, and when we meet we watch a chapter of the Snyderverse trilogy every time. In 2016 he was too young to understand BvS, but now he is almost as much a fan as I am.

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The problem is that by now the Snyderverse has become a fundamental part of my life. I know it will never be restored, but it’s hard for me to part with it. I’ve fought for him so long that accepting that he won’t have a future means accepting that there’s no hope for me either. He helped me through a dark time in my life and was the only light that enlightened me. I know you’ll call me a loser, maybe you’ll think I’m a troll, but I wanted to get this off my back. What for some is just a movie, for others, it can be a lifeline. I have to accept that WB has moved on, that Zack isn’t coming back, and neither is my wife. I messed up, I mixed my personal life with a movie saga and that compromised everything. Sorry for the outburst. If anyone is in the same situation let me know. If this post violates the rules, the admins are free to remove it. Thank you all.