Should I withdraw the money?

Im sorry to bother u by asking this but please be kind and empathetic when giving me your advice as i am mentally standing on fragile glass thats about to break. Thank you for your understanding.
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I don’t have a job as I tried hard to find one but couldn’t because of some law changes n my degree, I am in the process of starting my small business but I’m emotionally drained. I am tired of my family who abuses me physically n mentally and even with medicines with a high dose i can’t stand up on my feet.
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The thing is my eyesight has gotten so bad i have a hard time seeing and turns out both my eyesight and astigmatism got really bad -1 leading to -5, well I can’t afford to change my glasses so been skipping it for like 3 years until it got this bad. I had to buy glasses but since my prescription is high it was expensive… I got depressed as I have only a little money from my deceased dad insurance. I can’t ask anyone for help so I had to pay it in cash with all my money…. Now I have bills to pay for the house n I’m afraid if mom finds out if they cut out the internet she abuses me more n I’m already in my breaking point…
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I have money she put in my bank account investment for what she supposedly say is my money (she did that when dad was alive but used it up she is really strict with money n she needed it so i told her its fine. She likes to tell everyone about putting money for me to seem like the best mom ever please know my mom is mentally not a normal person) then a year and a half ago she put back money for me that some r actually my money from when i worked but everytime she says she will take it out saying I’m using her money when i only used it for my business n i asked permission n that part is actually my old money i give her. I used it also for my driving lessons that i needed n couldn’t afford but never told her as i plan to return everything even my business money in the account. Im not the best with money but i never buy anything i don’t need mostly but still i do use my money especially in food n cleaner n medicines i really struggle to cook or clean by myself its not that i don’t know how to its just the i cant do it for the life of me i keep hating myself for it. I even had to postpone my psychiatric for 6 months cause i couldn’t afford it n (no one knows about it) making my mental health worse until i did last month n raised my dose
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Now I have a bill to pay due to 17 nov n i have no one to borrow money from so thinking about that money i was desperate to take some but i cant since the bank investment only allow me to take a certain amount of money thats more than what i need n I’m scared since the sells is better but i cant buy them back to hide that i took that much since its higher than when i bought them first. I did give my mom permission paper to do anything to this bank account n access it at all time so I’m afraid she finds out n kill me. Im fighting with my sisters for reason i told before n i really want to return their money if i take that amount which is not that much as i always pay them back as much as i can affords i did take money from mom last month for my driving license (I already returned it to her this month) n she made a scene n told my sisters about it m made fun of me especially since she knows how much i get n i used to give her all my money then half of it then now only pay bills. As I’m done being treated like a slave. I really want to start my business but just think about my mental health its like I’m handicapped i have been for the last 2 days getting worser that i couldn’t breath because of how much i hate my life n i kept praying the one who ruined my life get punished one day.
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So should I just take money from the investment n leave it in the bank n only take what i need? Should i use some to pay my sisters my debut as i really want to be done with it n have nothing between us as i really despise them. But I will pay it back next month as i don’t want them to get suspicious. Or pay a part of it now then the rest next month.
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(If u wonder about anything in my family u have a wall of stories about them be ready for the drama though)
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Thank you.