I’m gonna try to keep this short. First, I (it’s capitalized for emphasis but you can’t tell because it’s already upper case) am really sorry about how I reacted last night. So, here is the deal. In the past when people have touched me in a way that made me feel really uncomfortable, I internalized it. I felt like a victim. I would hold that feeling until I ended up confronting whomever in a poor way.

People play around different ways. That’s fine. We all have our boundries (sp? whatever I’m not looking it up.) AND, since historically I’ve never said anything to anyone about it. No one knew. But, since I decided a while ago that I wasn’t gonna feel like a victim or any other uncomfortable way, I have been letting people know as things occur.

Unfortunately, I was confused about the passes (even though we were supposed to give all the DJ’s passes) for other reasons. AND, I was already stressed out and in need of a cigarette, your timing was super bad. I understand that you didn’t mean any harm. But, I honestly don’t understand how anyone could think that what you did would ever be an acceptable thing to randomly do to someone.

That’s okay. I’m not trying to vilify you in anyway. I genuinely don’t understand it. Like, I said some people play differently.

But, I am embarrassed and ashamed of how I responded. You accidentally triggered a switch with me that not many people know about. Honestly, it was a knee jerk reaction. I don’t wanna be that guy. But as a side note people, I hope anyway, should not mistake easy going and positive for weakness. I’m not saying you do, it’s just that I’ve had a hard time standing up for myself in the past.

So, I’m sorry for the part I played. I had no more right to put my hands on you than you did me. I’m down to forgive and forget, because holding on to negative emotion is deadly to oneself.
I’m glad you’re understanding and I appreciate your apology. I really thought it was nice when you played the psytrance. I heard you loud and clear.

I just needed to make peace for both of us. So, I’m cool if you are.
One more kinda unrelated thing. I don’t care what your orientation is. Really. If you’re figuring stuff out, figure it out. And you will. None of that is my business. I just wanted to say, you really are great. You really are a good soul. And man all of us get lost sometimes. But we always find our way.

So, outside of our DJ world. Outside of the politics and whatever. In the stage of the world, you’re good. We’re cool. And tomorrow, well hell, today is a new day.

I just had to let you know.

Peace.