TIFU by not to cleaning my penis for 16 years.

So, this all happened when I was 16. I’am 23 now but I mays well tell the cautionary tale.

So basically I was a a horny 16 yr old guy watching porn and jerking off. I was fairly late into jerking off and watching porn as I had only started around 16.
When I was watching I realised the dicks in it looked different to mine, the heads were like a mushroom. Then with further investigation I learned that mine was different because it had a foreskin, and that some guys had it cut off (circumcision) or it was retracted.

So after learning the foreskin could be retracted, i started to try and pull it back, but unfortunately the skin was VERY tight, and I could barely move it I learnt this was called ‘phimosis’ a tight foreskin.
I decided over several days to try and slowly ‘peel’ the foreskin back. I finally started to make progress but I began to notice a white ‘material ‘ under my foreskin,

My heart sunk, I was super confused and worried, i managed to get tiny bits off that were showing and they were hard as clay, I thought it was dried toilet paper. But I later learned it was ‘smegma’ but unlike other stories, mine was really hard. Like no oozy ness or anything.

I kept going further and larger chunks became visible, it was like an iceberg, where initially only the tip is showing but there is ALOT hidden underneath. I noticed the each chunk was painful and tender to take off, I got further and further down the head. Where eventually one shower, it slipped all the way down.

Revealing to my horror the most ‘smega’ of all, all built up under the head of my penis and on top of the head.

It was BURNING, my penis head had never been exposed properly and with the shower water on it it was so painful.
But I kept pushing through to get all the smega off of the head. It was like it had formed its own map onto my penis, with indents on the head I still have today.

Once I finally got a look a my raw penis head the real horror began.
The base of my head, like the mushroom edge part was purple and swollen. And there was purple discolourations on top of the head. But the worst was ‘grey’ area’s on the back of my head, with the feeling in them almost gone.

I was devastated, I could only guess that the grey part was from me ‘sleep fucking’ (with it erect under my stomach face down) and as my penis grew the hard smegma was constantly rubbing it and damaging the nerves hence the ‘grey’. The the swollen purple was most likely from the more recent mastabation where I’d forcefully jerk my penis but not realising I have hard clay rubbing the head.

I honestly was angry initially, at my dad, myself, I became jealous of people with normal penis’s and also wondered it it hindered it’s growth.

As time passed I got over the initial shock and discolouration, as years have gone by the purple has reduced but unfortunately the ‘grey’ areas are still there although kinda improved although the nerve damage I got remains

As a result some sexual acts I don’t enjoy, head being one them, it either feels like nothing or gives me a plainly shock. I was getting head one time from a girl I met at uni, and claimed she was amazing at head, as she was was getting into it, my leg randomly shot up with a mix of pleasure and pain (more so pain) we both stopped and stared at each other.

we joked about it later like ‘damn the head was that good it jolted life into you’. But I hate breaking it to girls I don’t enjoy it.

It also effected how sore my penis was, like I was have an aching sensation in the head of the penis for WEEKS initially and after jerking off, although that has improved the most. Was like having a crippled penis.

Moral of the story is tell your son to clean his penis. Or educate yourself.

And don’t take your normal fully functioning penis for granted.

TL;DR I didn’t clean my penis for 16 years and had to clean 16 years worth of smegma off it, which left me with permanent discolouration and nerve damage.