Trowaway account for privacy, this happened yesterday and I don’t know how to make it up.

My girlfriend and I met at university 4 years ago, and we both graduated some time ago. Since then we’ve both been looking for work, but the research is more difficult than we thought, and until yesterday neither of us had managed to get a job. Yesterday my girlfriend received a positive answer to one of her applications, for a job located 430 kilometers from our hometown. She was very happy and that’s how she told me to come to her house to tell me some good news about the research. So expecting some good news, I took a detour to buy her sushi because we both love it, and I arrived at her house early in the evening, and that’s when she tells me that in two weeks she’s going to go more than 400 kilometers from our city, and that I now have to look in the same area as her. I totally lost my mind when she told me that. I explain that I understand that the research is complicated, but that it was no reason to look at work across the country, and that I had no desire to leave my family and friends because my life is in my hometown. The situation then became very tense, she told me that I am selfish and that I have to learn to move away, that even if there is no urgency, it is important to find a job quickly so as not to remain inactive. I then offered her a long-distance relationship for a few months because I really don’t want to leave, and she could come back as soon as she found a job in our city. And that, guys, she took it really hard, I’ve never seen her so upset in my life. She then gave me an ultimatum: either I follow her or we stop our relationship, and she asks me if I’m really ready to leave her to stay with my family and friends. Maybe some people can see it, but this is the moment I fucked up.

I still don’t know why my brain betrayed me like that, but the only answer I could find was : “Perhaps, maybe it is a small price to pay for salvation”. I could have made long rants to show her that I love her, that I care about her. I could have found arguments so that we could solve the situation, as any person in a relationship for 4 years would do. But no, my fucking stupidity made me quote a purple guy. She looked at me with an empty look for several seconds, I realized how much I fucked up, but nothing came from my mouth. She just asks me to leave her house, and since yesterday she speak to me or answer my calls and messages. I sent her a very long message of apology, adding that I hope we will be able to resolve the situation, but still no answer.

I am now staring my Thanos funko pop thinking how much this guy may have ruined part of my life.

TLDR : GF finds a job far away from our city and I doesn’t want to leave my life to live this far. She asks me if I’m really ready to leave her just to stay in my city and my only answer was “Maybe it is a small price to pay for salvation”.