Fucking end your life. Find a rope, coat it in the used baking grease from your last batch of deep fried twinkies, and leave it in the freezer- if you have one you bankrupt piece of human manure. Remove your iced up grease noose, and hang it from the nearest structure in the used up whore ass trailer shithole you waste your lard ass away in, and then drop yourself just short of blackout from it. Then wriggle around as the grease coats your fucked up diseased fat folds and you gives your disgusting struggling, sorry ass the worthless, uncomfortable, painful ten minutes of struggle that might actually sum up to an apology to your mother because she had to struggle for a fucking failure like you, you piece of worthless horse shit.