I hate my mom and her boyfriend 😣

I can’t believe they hate that I want 2 be female. My moms boyfriend found out I was doing hrt, because he keep an eye on me. Today he told me “ur a disgrace, discussing freak. Wait until ur mom finds out. Which ima make u tell her whats going on”. Then he told my mom and I had 2 tell her whats going on and of course shes gonna believe her boyfriend not her kid. They r religious which makes it much worse and they only believe a man and a woman should 2 be together. Nothing eles and god made a mistake on there son. And I’m never going 2 forgive them for what they call me names and LIBERALLY, LIBERALLY THEY BURNED MY HRT PILLS!!. and i dont feel safe with them. Cuz her boyfriend says ur being selfish and thats hurting ur mom. I told him how? Just because i want 2 be my true self doesn’t mean u guys have 2 be like this. Im ur child no matter what. And if he finds out if im still doing hrt he will PUNCH ME UNTIL I BLEED AND HES GONNA MAKE ME SWALLOW IT. So he gave me a death threat. And im fucking scared of that dude 4 life as well my mom gives me death stares if she sees me. I cried 4 hours and im so heartbroken, distrust, even more depressed and more Suicidal Thoughts. And told them since u dumbasses burn my pills my hormones r fucked. Thx 2 u transphobic people and he just laughed at me and said “lol so ur gonna look more like a faggot with boobs and be like a pregnant woman. And last thing he said 2 me. ” so since ur depressed let me help u by killing urself. LITERALLY THIS psychopath put a knife on my hand and said. “Here, kill ur self”. I was so scared and traumatize by him. i wish i can live some where else that I’ll be safe and won’t get death threats or May be killed. PLZ SOME1 HELP ME!