Me \[21F\] and my bf \[22M\] have been talking about trying new things out in the bedroom. I suggested anal as I’ve never done it and I know he has. He sort of brushed it off, which I thought was a little weird as most guys I’ve talked to love the idea of anal. I told him if it made it uncomfortable then we obviously wouldn’t do it and would find something else. He agreed and dropped it.

We went back to cuddling and watching movies and suddenly he turned to me and said “the last time I had anal she shit on my lap”. To be fair I’ve heard anal can get messy and there are accidents bound to happen, but he was so distraught over it. I tried to make him feel better when he told me what happened and he ended the conversation by saying he loves me and wants to try anal with me. But now I am totally horrified. The thought of having an “accident” on him is so far out of my comfort zone. He’s brought it up a few times when we’ve had sex since but I just keep putting it off. How do I get over this fear? I would plan on doing proper “preparation” before and I want to get closer with him and have a good experience for him too. I just need to get out of my head.. any advice is welcome!